13 Aug 2008
I want to know when it got to the point that we talk about people by how they look in relation to size and weight and skin color? I mean seriously, don't these people have names. or find a better way to describe them than that heavy set woman or the black lady or that skinny little woman who needs to have her pants washed!!! I find it rude. And yes I've done it before and probably still will but how did it come to this. I mean honestly, don't you listen to yourself talk! Makes me want to smack them upside the head. Gah!! so frustrated with life currently like you wouldln't believe.
05 Aug 2008
I've realized that my life is rather boring. and technology hates my guts. well blackboard. but that site hates everyone. I get to go to Ohio this coming weekend and watch all the excitement. I'll update on that later, especially if things go to hell. which I'm pretty sure they will. Bob the douchebag is going to be there with his blond, critch the bitch. I'll explain on that if need be.
Going along with the critch thing, I have a crick in my neck... which is totally not a segue but shut up. two days of sleeping in will entirely screw up your sleep schedule. and your neck bending ability. but I'm glad. because I slept in past 10am, for once in like a month. which sucks. oh and I got paid!!!!! only $300 for a month and a half [since May 14 or something] but whatever. I'll take it. grumbling. but yes.
Got a guilt trip today about why I don't want to drive. somebodys elses opinion but still. She said that it would be mean then I'd have to run around and be Errand Bitch [not in those exact words] Sorry not everyone has an urge to jump behind the wheel and drive. uhhhh.... sorry. I'll get there sooner or later. but driving with an 80 yr old, would drive me up a wall! which might sound a little mean. but I'm tired of being told what to do or how I should live my life!!!
This is why I want to move! honestly. to just get away from overbearing relatives. and yes I know they love me. whatever. I'm just fed up with it all. I still have no idea how to tell her about Ashley. which makes me feel bad, because her gram knows. Maybe I'm just scared and slightly wigging out about it. If you have any suggestions let me know. I think she may already know since ashley and I are constantly texting and talking on the phone to each other. then again my gram thinks you can't have a relationsihp with somebody when you can't see their face. I get that, but if you have a picture you can see them. you can hear. find comfort in their voice. and their thoughts. and I think you grow closer because you learn to trust and love the other person without everything else in the picture. I love that I'm six inches taller than her. or that she's the last person I hear before I fall asleep. Yes I'm a sap, but I love her, so leave it alone! hehe.
more later
27 Jul 2008
So I love to write. like hardcore write. I have one story I'm writing currently that I totally took from a dream I had earlier this week. [okay last week but whatever.. details] so that brings me to my brilliant idea here. I want to write a book. and yes I know, big dreamer. perhaps. BUT I know what I want it to be like and I want to be the one to write it. Not somebody else. I'm not like Randy Pausch who can call somebody whose a fabulous writer and have them write it. side note: his book is fabulous!!! go read it. okay anyway, I want to incorperate my pictures into it as well. just not entirely sure how to do that exactly. then I'm curious if it costs more to use black and white pictures or just leave them in color. or just say fuck it and mix them up and see what happens. We'll see, I guess. My one little hope is that it doesn't turn out like the chicken soup books... because that would annoy me. granted those books are done really well, just not what I want to write. Liz said to stay away from overly sappy stories and I'd be fine. so yea. I'll try to write something thats not like *hands you the tissues* type story. I'll keep you updated. promise
27 Jul 2008
So yea. Moving. Big change, I know. Its not set in stone yet. So don't worry. but the idea and the ability to find places to live that cost more than I own, is fantastic. I love the city!! Which if you new me when I was in high school or around that 18 year old stage, I depised the city. so I find it rather funny that now, when I'm 23, I love it... can't explain it really. so yea. looking for a small relatively priced placed that two people can live in easily without killing each other. That's always a plus. I know I don't have to go hunt for a roommate [hopefully] which gives me one less thing to try and figure out. I'm getting ready to send in my resume to a couple of internships in vairous places in the city. so keep your fingers crossed for me. k thanks.
27 Jul 2008
Do you ever have days where it feels like your eyes are being propped open by tiny little sticks [those little eye worker people, highly invisible until they poke you in the eye without realizing it.] Now if you still following that, then you get my point. I slept really well last night after having a heart to heart with my girlfriend on the phone. but it still doesn't explain the little icepick eye openers... Seriously my eyes hurt so bad today. Its crazy. Then again I probably slept like a madwoman last night. I toss and turn if you really wanted to know. so that could explain it. But who knows. I really need to go stand under the warm water in a shower and see what happens.
26 Jul 2008
Welcome to my new blog. Everything is out and in the open. I'll post and rant about just about aything under the sun so I'm warning you now. I might post things I've written or photographs I've taken. I'm not sure of that just yet. I'm a very creative person and get annoyed easily. But I have people in my life that keep me grounded and happy. even if they're a couple hundred miles away. Keep posted checking back for more updates, images and stories.
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